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Getting Older

 


I guess you could say I will always feel like I'm a kid at heart.  Physically I'm much older than that, but mentally I'm probably between 25-35.  I've always had friends and relationships that were that age range, no matter my physical age.  
i had to undergo surgery back at the end of 2021.  It really took a toll on me.  I have worked hard all my life, and now I'm physically in pain daily and it hurts to work most the time, but I push through.  I have tried teaching myself as well as taking online courses in hopes that I can find an online stay at home job designing web pages or something.  I enjoy doing things on the computer and it's not near as painful.  
I live with family and they depend on me working so that we don't get behind on bills.  
I gotta try and build a fan base of some kind or something.  I just know that I can't do hard labored work much longer.  
These are just jumbled thoughts in my head.  My head is a clusterfuck of ideas, nightmares, thoughts, creative expression.  I'm usually all over the place.  
I just needed to vent a little.  


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